My Feelings

Yeah !!!

2009-01-11T04:55:00.000-08:00

So hapy nia this few days ...
i can go to her house without wori bout her mum ..
her mum finally allow us to dating ...
hohox ....

but i still scare her mum ...
scare she angry me ...
but overall is okiex ...
ntg to rite ...

end here =)

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2009-01-07T05:48:00.000-08:00

everyday also so late onli back home ...
she morning class but i afternoon class ..
cant c tio her .. haizz ...
at skool hard to concentrate .. =(
well .. just wish me good luck ...

end here .. lolssss !!!

Skool Started ><

2009-01-04T03:51:00.000-08:00

Haiz...
just couldn't believe it !!!
the holidays r over n my form 4's life here !!!
need 2 +u+u so can get good result ...

sob sob T_T
dun wan end up my holiday so fast >< ...
ntg much 2 post 2day...

haiz...
some ppl the blog so nice!
my blog so ugly!!!
lucky my gf changed for me =) ..

reali like it so much ..
muackz ..

end of post ..

Conclusion in 2008 =)

2009-01-01T00:11:00.000-08:00

its a big celebration when we started 2008 !!!
but!!! its not how we started it ..
it is not about how we went through it ...
it is also not about what we have or have not done during it ...

but its about how we finish it !!
we can choose to finish 2008 with sorrow n regret ..
or we can choose to finish cheerful n hapi ...
but 2day ... i choose to end with VICTORY !!!

even through sorrow ... bitterness and pain ...
thx god for what he has gave to me ...
thx god for giving me a chance with HER ...
thx god for giving me good frens =)

thx god for giving me a good family ... hapiness ...
SECOND CHANCE .. LOVE !!!
god had gave me HER that i can never find anyone to replace HER ..
god had gave me frens too ...
they r like my bros ..

they always help me when i nid them ..
n ofcoz sometimes we trick each other .. =)
n thx to god again ...
he gave me a family who love me so much that i couldnt ask for more...

most important he gave me HER ...
a second chance ~ the chance to be with HER ...
" i always b with u no matter wat happen to u "... LOVE !!
i onli LOVE HER ...

i wanted to thx for the frens He gave to me ...
n thx for my dear dear ... Lim Bee Kie ...=)
below is the list of the frens i wanted to thx ...

Chow Weng Jin ~ ( harshel , laughing sound can be heard when he is there )
Yeoh Zi Xuan ~ ( rich kia .. faithful .. but also ham sap lou .. )
Tan Chun Ming ~ ( dai lou .. also known as tubeng ... )
Yong Yong Hwai ~ ( justin ... but last time known as maknyah )

Teh Soon Le ~ ( teh kia .. love yu jun .. hehex .. )
Ong Peik Yang ~ ( peik "boobs" )
Yeoh Teik Weng ~ ( weng ko !! tek ko !! bamboo )
Tan Zheng Xian ~ ( "pan yao yeng" )

Narongrit A/L So Mai ~ ( narong"chicks" , cangkerik )
Cornelius Lee Chun Ying ~ ( corn , like to show off english , noob kia , toothpick )
Lee Kar Seng ~ ( qiko = = ... )
Ch'ng Chin Leng ~ ( jonathan's gay partner )

Jonathan Quah Zhong Yi ~ ( chin leng's gay partner )
Lim Hock Eng ~ ( my gf's cousin =) )
Eng Wooi Ming ~ ( wong wong , dong fang bu bai )
Yeow Pak Yang ~ ( his face looks like goat .. guai lan )

Alexis / Karena ~ ( always sorrow , sad , but like to help ppl )
Greenyong / Yong Yean ~ ( tarzen , like to peh lampa in skool ... )
Bandit911 / Yaw zai ~ ( dit zai =) ... my guild's jr master )
shiroicleric / Ken ~ ( ken kia .. dit's fren .. my guild's another jr master )

Joey Aw Jia Ying ~ ( owl ~ noob owl ~ owhh !! ouch !! )
Tan Ean Lee ~ ( ah sou .. dai sou .. lolss !! )
Tan Shy Yin ~ ( shy yong hwai ~ )

sry if i missed out your names...
n sry if the description is wrong =) ..
just for laughing purpose ..
Happy New Year 2009 !!

end here ...

Melaka ~ KL ~ Genting ~

2008-12-28T21:58:00.000-08:00

as my title said it ..
my gf went to those place again ...
keep go vacation ..
damn rich sia ... lolsss ..

i wish i can go with her =X
she went there from fri till sund's nite ..
veri miss her this few days ...
she does too .. =X

at melaka ...
she went to jonker walk ...
n A famosa ...
she told me that she saw maknyah there ..

lolsss .. the maknyah is performance ..
since i long time din c tio chung heng on9 ...
i think he is the maknyah kia .. .hahax ...
hope justin not 1 of them ... =)

well .. i not reali sure bout her time table ..
so i gona skip her part .. n say something bout me =X
during the day she went there ...
same as always .. veri late on wake up ...

den eat n slip ... slip n eat ..
everyday continue the same things ..
becoz my k bro come to stay my house ..
he don wanna let me use com .. shit = = ...

den i was happy coz my gf back early than i tought ..
lolss .. lame post lai .. mai read .. = =..
end here ..

BBQ ~~

2008-12-28T21:08:00.000-08:00

last fri's christmas ... 7oclock something ...
cm , ks , me n my gf went to jason house ..
justin organize a bbq there ..
but he veri late karhx go ...

we prepared food 4 justin b4 he come ...
den i accidentally dropped a raw fish ball in my drinks ..
so i change another cup ..
den the cup giv justin use =X

n 1 of the nuggret fell in the ground ...
den we cook 4 him .. lolss !!!
but nvm larhx justin ... high temperature kill the bacteria ..
don wori .. =)

den when justin eating ...
ks use spray sprayed on justin head ..
lolsss ... after that ... spray war coming !!!
stupid ks spray on my gf's hair == ..

cm n i revenge ... lolsss ..
coz he also spray on cm ...
den all spray lai spray ki ...
until all the spray finished ..

jason gona cry .. lolss
coz the spray's bubble went in his fish pond ..
he scare his fish dead ..
he said 1st time rear the fish so long .. lolss ==

den after that .. all play ice again == ..
throw lai throw ki ... HOLY JESUS !!!
ks so qiko .. lolsss ..
after that we went to jason's bedroom ...

cm n i play chess ..
he lost =X ..
after that we go out watch they play ps2..
my gf n i back at 10.30pm ...

the next day she going to melaka ...
gona reali miss her =) ...
end here ...

After ..

2008-12-23T07:46:00.001-08:00

After heard wat she told me ytd nite ...
i started realize that im always make a mistake ..
she was right ... mayb i should care her more ..
i think she had felt disappointed on me ...

i wont make any mistake d ...
i will change myself again .. n again n again ..
until she satisfy with me ...
i want to be a perfect bf for her .. .

i reali felt sry for her >< wat i gona do ...
i will try to learn more things ..
sry >< ...

Without you? CANNOT !!!

2008-12-20T22:17:00.000-08:00

without u .. nobody will play guci with me ... CANNOT !!!
without u .. nobody will b my princess ... CANNOT !!!
without u .. nobody will pei me chattnig ... CANNOT !!!
without u .. nobody will put same display pic with me .. CANNOT !!!

without u .. nobody will singing with me ... CANNOT !!!
without u .. nobody will ans my phone until morning .. CANNOT !!!
without u .. nobody will make cakes n cookies 4 me ... CANNOT !!!
without u .. nobody will feed me eat ice-cream ... CANNOT !!!

without u .. nobody will share my drinks with me ... CANNOT !!!
without u .. nobody will care bout me ... CANNOT !!!
without u .. nobody will share secret or prob with me ... CANNOT !!!
without u .. nobody will cover same blanket with me ... CANNOT !!!

without u .. nobody will call me lao gong ... CANNOT !!!
without u .. nobody will call me chou ren ... CANNOT !!!
without u .. nobody will laugh with me ... CANNOT !!!
without u .. nobody will slip with me ... CANNOT !!!

without u .. nobody will cook 4 me in the future ... CANNOT !!!
without u .. nobody will giv me hapiness ... CANNOT !!!
without u .. reali reali reali reali reali reali ... CANNOT !!!

Revenge ..

2008-12-18T06:00:00.001-08:00

time is ticking sec by sec ...
n the day i waiting the most is 2molo ...
i will revenge for wat he had done to me ..
he forced me to do so ...

if 2molo he dare to tease my gf in front of me ..
i wont softed heart anymore ...
SHE'S MINE NOT YOURS
stop fooling around with me ...

if u wan a girl go find your xiao bing ..
go find your pineapple ...
everyone but not her ...

THE SCUM KNOWN AS JJ

2008-12-18T06:00:00.000-08:00

i hate 1 guy ...
i hate him since i started noe him ..
i hate he becoz of his style ...
i hate him becoz he tease my gf ...

2day dono wat happen ...
my gf din reply my msg n din even ans my phone ..
so i phone to her house ..
at 1st a kid ans the phone ...

den she went to called my gf ...
after tat she ans my phone ...
but she doesnt felt like wanna talk ..
so less than 1 min .. we closed the phone ..

den bout 4 something near 5 ...
my gf call me to phone her ...
n i did ... den i heard a irritating sound ..
the WORST sound i ever head ...

a FUCKING sound ...
a BITCH FUCKING's LAUGHING sound
i knew it ... he is the person i hate the most ...
he is that jj ... after knew that he was there ...

i veri angry coz my gf din even told me anything ...
den suddenly he can chat with my gf while i was waiting a msg from her ..
so i went out to find my gf without thinking anything ...
but when i reached there .. probably few meter left ...

she call me don find her ..
i understand that ...
but i reali hate that guy ...
i hate the way he look at my gf ...

i hate the way he act like he was the bf of the girl he like ...
I HATE HIM , NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY
THE FACT WONT CHANGE EVEN I DIE ...
however ... i listen wat my gf said .. i went home ..

den after i went home ...
she got on9 but din reply me ...
i waiting her almost whole afternoon ...
reali make me wanna cry that moment ...

but after think bout that guy ...
man .. my blood rush up ..
smoke coming out from my body ..
i wanna kill that guy !!!

the decision has made ...
now ME , CW ... has no relation with that guy ...
i wont talk to him anymore ...
2molo also wont ... i will consider him as invisible ...

HE is not my fren anymore ...
im a person that angry-is-a-must when the person like him talk to my gf ..
while i at house waiting for her ...
even though bk don hav any relation with u .. n she don like u either ... but ..

FUCK U JJ ... CURSE YOU !!!
GO LET CAR CRASH LARHX !! MAHAI
I HOPE I NEVER KNEW U !!!
WILL NEVER ADMIT U R MY FREN !!!

CIBAI OOI KAH JIN
I HATE U !!!

Noob kia ( old version justin ) =P

2008-12-15T02:35:00.003-08:00

last sat ... some1 added me in msn ...
n i tought some1 playing me ..
but nope ..he asked me noob kia things ..
so i blocked him .. lolsss ..

now .. old version justin coming out ...
after blocking him .. he change his msn personal msg ...
he wrote something bout he having a block detector ..
muahahahahx ...

noob kia ... like i care bout it ...
dono y he got blocked d but still wanna pyy ..
told the whole world he got blocked through personal msg ..
beh pai seh punya .. lolss ..

below is our conversation ..
after that i del him .. enjoy ^^
click to view large image

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz ...

2008-12-15T00:35:00.000-08:00

trying center ... lolss

below is my opinion bout those ppl who add me in msn ..

1. its not good way to make friends by first asking them "r u open minded?" n "wanna sex?" U R JUST MAKING A FOOL OUT OF YOURSELF LOLSSS!

2. When i ask u "how did you get my msn?"... n the reply that pissed me off THE MOST is "OH sry i cant tel ... later my friend scold me"... SHIT U LARHX ... LOLSSS! I JUST WANA NOE HOW U GET MY MSN ... IM NOT GONA GO KILL YOUR FRIEND OKIEX!!#!^&%$! U THINK I SO FREE ARHX!?!? MAHAI!!!

i used to get 1 very 'special' answer "I got ur email add from a piece of paper i found on the floor ... so i just add u"...WTF NONSENSE IS THIS LARHX! n pls dont give me lame answers like "Oh i randomly typed in an email and got your msn "WAT THE CRAP?! SO U THINK IM THAT STUPID AR?! LOLSSS!

okiex so now u know what i dislike people to do hahax ... so pls dont piss me off n pls giv me a appropriate answers hehex...

nightmare passed ..

2008-12-14T03:44:00.001-08:00

nightmare passed .. .
i were saved by a light ..
by her light ...
she finally wake me up ..

last fri went to her house ..
slip on her bed ..
the feeling is damn nice ..
wakakakax ..

wish i can go in again ...
her house veri nice ..
her bed comfortable ..
everything is perfect .. including her ..

n 2day she came to my house ..
i wanted to say sry to her ..
if wasnt becoz of me ..
it wont happen .. sry ..

at here i wanna tell all my fren ..
(even though no ppl view my blog)
i n her ntg d .. still couple ^^

phew ~~

2008-12-11T03:01:00.000-08:00

the moment she told me that ..
she wanna change her emel .. cancel fs ..
change her phone num ...
n wont giv me new emel n num ...

make me damn wori ...
suddenly i felt veri scare ..
den i keep begging her let me noe her new emel ..
if she cre8 it .. but she rejected ..

den finally she told me that she just kidding ..
luckily .. she act damn real ...
more good than those actor or actress that gain award ..
if got chances i think she can b famous actress ^^

at here .. i would like to tell her tat ..
she is important 4 me .. so i cant afford to lose her in my life ..
i love her .. muackz ~

~_~

2008-12-08T20:43:00.000-08:00

ytd nite .. i cry until vommit ..
coz keep coughing ...
coz i made her angry ...
but luckily she ans my phone at last ..

we on9 discuss many things ...
discuss on phone either ...
until 2 or 2 something ...
she said will giv me a ans ...

so i waiting for it ...
i hope it wont b a bad news ...
i noe u veri tired n pressure now ...
so im not going to giv u any for now ..

i still had alot of things wanna do with u ...
so pls giv me a chance ...

Disappoint ... Cry .. Pain ... Hurt ..

2008-12-07T22:48:00.000-08:00

ytd ... the things finally happen ...
we both cried whole night ...
haizz ... reali damn sad ytd ..
almost make me cant slip ..

just now .. she went to her cousin's house ...
i saw her .. n look at her .. but din talk with her ..
i dono wat should i say .. or wat should i do ..
but after that .. i nearly cry out ... lucky ...

i not gona embrass myself in front of my primary fren ..
arrrgh ... y my life is so unlucky ...
hope she will back to my side ...
so that we can hav our 1st valentine ...

end here ..

Promise ...

2008-12-05T00:25:00.000-08:00

ytd .. u told me that u will b with me 4eva ..
n wont leave me again ...
but 2day .. u told me that u wanna separate for awhile ..
coz u had alrdy tired with our relation ..

u told me we separate for 3 month ...
but did u noe ??
this 3 month will be the most slowest .. pain-est day ..
that i will ever had in my life ..

so ... since u wanna like that ..
y must u promise me anything ??
u break the promise .. if u just wanna let me hav confident ..
i rather u din do so than break the promise ..

somemore .. if "cold war" we can maintain our relation ..
n u wont break your promise also ..
y don do tat ?? y ... pls tell me y ..
izzit u hav any plan in your mind .. or forced to do so ..

did u noe .. once we separate ..
even just for awhile ...
no matter our relation how stable .. how long ..
we will change into stranger ...

thats y .. i wan u to think bout it carefully ...
b4 u make the decision ...
coz .. i don wanna regret anymore .. so do u ..
pls .. think for few days b4 u say that ..

i don wan u make any wrong decision ...
i noe u care bout for family ...
but how bout me ??
for u .. mayb separate is good decision ..

but do u ever think the same question when u r me ..
izzit the decision good for me ??
mayb leng zhan will better than separate ??
u will hapi .. your family will hapi .. i will hapi ...
at least .. i will be happier with cold war than separate ..

wat i do 2day ..
is wat i left behind last time ..
i don wanna regret anymore ...

long life ~~

2008-12-01T23:39:00.000-08:00

if there was magician exists in this world ..
n if the magician can let u alive forever n cant die ...
when u hear bout it .. i think u all wan it rite ??
last time i also wan it .. but now .. nope ..

mayb its kinda attractive for some person ..
but 4 me .. i prefer dead at old age than stay alive ..
coz if we cant die .. n the person we love has dead ...
who we wanna live for ??

that kind of live some sort of boring ...
yeah .. u mayb rite ... we can find other ..
but think bout it .. u can alive for million years ...
n keep did the same things ... repeat n repeat ..

n u keep c the person u love dead again n again ..
would u hapi to c it ??
okiex .. in other words .. u love sex ...
but since u wont dead .. u gona sex for few million years??

so ... appreciate wat u had now ..
n do not let go of them if u reali love / like it ..
try your best not to hurt them ..

for myself .. i hav someone for me to stay alive ..
thats her ... onli her ... she is the onli reason ..
love her 4eva .. muackzz ...

....

2008-11-29T07:08:00.000-08:00

dear dear ... i love u ...
love u make me feel hapi ... meaningful ...
without u my life dull .. meaningless ..
so .. pls b with me 4eva ... =)

warhx ... an opening like this
so hiong nia .. muahahahax ...
later will b more hiong gok ..
if the ppl flue better don c. . coz damn rou ma .. (mayb)

your voices are so sweet .. n so seductive ...
make me cant stop listen it ...
your smile are so cute ...
i had addicted with it ...

if 1 day din c u ...
make me more n more miss u ...
if everyday c u ...
make me more n more love u ...

conclusion is ...
u r my everything ..
my everything were given by u ...
so .. cannot leave me yarhx ... hehex ...

y i wanna kiss u ..
becoz i wanna tell u that i love u ..
the reason becoz i holding your hand ..
coz wan to let u noe i always b with u ..

i hugging u tight ...
becoz i don wan let u go away from me ...
u r important to me ... n to let u noe ...
i cant live without u ...

if i too chang qi ..
den sry harrr ...
coz i veri scare u leave me ...
hehex ... but i noe u wont ...

okiex ...
last pharagraph ...
as a ending ...
old stuff again ...

i wont b here ..
but i wan u to hear ...
i wan to b my dear ..
now n 4eva .. hope u wont say never ^_^

end here ...

= = ...

2008-11-28T04:50:00.000-08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ....
a midnite screaming came from me ..
wat happen actuali ?? nightmare ?? kicked something ??
nope ... my k bro fall from bed n pressed me = =

ytd hard to slip after that ..
he dropped from the bed n pressed me ...
damn pain ... wuwuwu ...
den mosquitoes bite my whole nite ...

cant slip .. until 4 or 5 something ..
coz heard the malay " liam keng "
den i wake up kinda late ...
n 2day hardly pei my bao bei ...

my k bro using my com ...
haizz .. kelian ..
lucky he back d ...
^^

=( ---> =)

2008-11-26T22:31:00.000-08:00

everynite i force myself not to think bout anything that negative ...
but i cant stop thinking bout it ... until now ...
i had the chance to c her at least once a week after she moved ...
thats make me hapi .. she promised me that she will stay my house when holiday ..

warhx .. just think bout it make me hapi ...
everynite when i cold i can hug her ...
if we cant slip .. we can talk with each other ...
somemore we can wake each other up ...

doesnt it fun when just thinking bout it ??
i hope that will happen ...
u all don luan luan think .. just slip ... ntg else ..
muahahahahahahahx ....

nowaday i seldom pei her ...
coz my k bro come stay my house ...
den hp also no money d ...
but later i gona reload 4 her ... coz i noe she bored ..

damn miss her but dono wat to do ..
wanted to c her but hard to do so ...
warhx ... i keep think bout the moment she come my house ...
guess .. i too excited to that .. cant wait for that day to come ..

justin stop warhx-ing or swt-ing
just normal ...
love her so much .. muackz ...

stop here ..

ZzZzzz ... sleeping ...

2008-11-24T06:09:00.000-08:00

nowaday seldom raining ...
i hope its raining everyday ...
especially at night b4 i slip n afternoon ..
if 24 hours raining more nice ...

i like to hear the raining sound ...
make me relax somehow .. hehex ..
indeed .. its veri relax at the moment ..
make ppl lazy .. hav a relax body ...

pls raining this few days ...
long time no raining ...
kinda stress ... my head pain ...
lolsss ... not reali =)

i wanted to slip in the midnite when raining ..
damn comfortable. . more nice than aircon
muahahahahahax ... this kinda of things ..
onli lazy ppl will enjoy it .. hehex ...

btw ... wj told me justin at india ...
but justin told me he at sg ...
noob justin cant enjoy the rain ..
after u saw this post. . kill me if u can .. bluek ...

stopping ..

boring day again ...

2008-11-17T19:50:00.000-08:00

gosh ...
the moment she went to her new house for wedding dinner ...
i feel damn bored ... ntg to do at all ...
but damn miss her ...

i don hav a plan for my holiday ...
somemore my com doesnt hav any games ...
so i on9 to chat with someone ...
but seriously ... no one on9 except few ppl n some strangers ...

wuwuwu ...
reali miss her so much ...
wanna go n find her if i can .. hehex ...
even i go there i also pai seh .. coz all girls ... her cousin there .. lolss ..

from sat until 2day ...
i don remember wat i had do ...
mayb ntg .. coz i don think i had do anything ...
zzz .. i dono wat i say bout ...

btw .. i think narongrit back from pj ...
damn him .. doesnt giv me a call or a sms msg ...
gona kill him if i meet him ...
n silly cornelius also disappear. .. = =

never saw cm on9 alrdy ...
think he playing maple private server ...
jason not going to on9 this few weeks ..
going to aus ... travel ...

lame post ... stop here ...
091 ... <<< u noe who i mean =.="

Don leave me in the future ... Cant live without u

2008-11-12T04:45:00.000-08:00

after saw your edited post ...
after heard wat u told me in msn ...
i started to feel scare .. sad ...
i had never feel like that myself ... i lost myself ..

i told u that we sure can maintain ...
whether u believe or not ...
i said it coz we reali can ...
not becoz just wanna comfort we both ..

pls trust me .. try not to think like that now ...
don say sry to me anymore ...
that will make me even scare ...
i scare u say that coz wanna leave me alone T_T ...

bao bei .. i reali cant imagine the day without u ...
i reali don wanna continue living anymore ...
we had experience alot of things .. wouldnt it a waste if we giv up now??
2 more years onli ... pls .. still remember last time wat did u said ??
u call me to wait u until form 5 .. n i willing to do so ... until now i still remember it ...

still remember wat we bet this year ??
u said u wont leave me 1st .. n say will tank mostly until form5 ...
n said i will leave u onli ... n now i din leave u anymore ..
n now i tell u .. I WONT LEAVE U ALSO UNLESS I DIE ...
its true ...

u should noe .. im serious with u since we started ...
i told myself that if i sayang u ... love u ... treat u nicely .. u jor wont leave me ...
i scare i lost u .. i scare u sad. . i scare u angry ...
so i care bout your everything ... mayb u think that veri ma fan .. but its okiex ..

mayb u think im stupid ..
mayb u think not worth doing that ...
but never angry or scold me coz that ..
coz i cant control my love on u ...

don leave me in the future ..
reali cant live without u ...

No more lonely crying ... Promise me .. I will b there 4 u ..

2008-11-12T03:00:00.000-08:00

we were young ... n we still hav alot of chances ...
never say u prefer we never start ...
unless u r reali unhappy b with me ..
feel sad when u say that .. coz i never regret b with u ...

don feel sad coz u r moving house ...
coz our relation can still b remain ..
never giv up the hope ...
becoz u were the one that gav me alot of hopes ...

if u saw me crying .. don cry ...
can u laugh?? your smile will make me feel better ...
if we reali cant b with each other like u said ...
remember wat i had gav to u .. told u .. n the moment i b with u ..
never 4gout bout it .. let it become our sweet memory ...

but 4 me .. that things will never happen ...
coz .. i believe in u ...
n we still hav long journey to go ..
i mean after form 5 ...

i blame myself coz cant do anything when u r cring in front of me just now ...
i cant even comfort u or cheer u up ..
all i can do is just lying beside u n hug u ...
wanted to let u noe that u r not alone .. no matter wat happen .. u still hav me ...

pls .. read every msgn poem that i cre8 4 u ...
n read all the love letter i rite 4 u ..
never del it ... never lost it .. never throw it ...
i reali put alot of afford in those letter n poem ...

if u need anything .. just tell me ...
don wori ... im yours ... so no nid to shy when ask for it ..
still remember wat my dad told u ??
if u nid anything just ask from me or him .. my family so sayang u lorhx .. hahax ..

if u had any xin shi or secret ...
would u share it with me ?
just now i took your pic ...
wanted to keep it n look at u when u not beside me ..

when i hugging u .. kissing u ...
i noe u feel pai seh coz your fren n my fren was there ...
u say they will be watching us ... let them do so ...
anyway ... we will outshine them ...

never cry alone anymore ...
iw will be yours always ...
hope u remember our days .. .
coz future we sure will married .. thats the purpose y im still living ...

i love u n cant stop it anymore ...
i would rather die than stop it ..
pls no more crying n say sry to me anymore ...
becoz u never do anything wrong .. n your tears r more precious than a diamond ...

everynite u slip .. i will hug u tight ...
when u nid to cry ... just cry on my shoulder ...
im by your side .. u will be safe all nite .. .
so close your eyes .. n no more sadness .. no more tears ...

coz this is not goodbye .. just a good nite ..
when u wake up .. i will be there for u ..
slip well .. n if u cold .. i will hug u tight tight ...
wanted u to feel xing fu .. n can smile even u was slipping .. hohox ..

the bite that u gav me when u r at my house just now ...
i will always remember it ... not becoz the pain or wat. .
becoz .. it is a part of memory that u , my beloved wife gave to me ...
promise me .. no more lonely crying ... i will b there 4 u ..

A thinking b4 slip ..

2008-11-11T19:54:00.000-08:00

ytd nite ... my gf told me she wanna slip ..
so i went to slip after her ...
den i thinking bout the afternoon stuff ..
den i think bout something that reali piss me off ...

the story begin like tat ...
a guy came to my gf's cousin's house ..
den that guy was teasing my gf ...
he said my gf wearing a green bra ...

WTF !!! that was unforgivable ...
teasing her in front of me ??
hell no !!! damn him !!!
that reali piss me off ...

but luckily after that ...
he no more teasing her ...
or else .. he deserve my punch ...
don believe it ?? den try it again ...

den my gf also ntg ...
so not gona quarrel with him ...
he make me feel offence with him ...
better bkful ... if not die also dono wat happen ...

at here .. a warning to this 4 ppl ...
those 4 ppl that i listed below was in my blacklist ..
blackmailed since they teasing , harrasing , backstabbing , gossiping my gf ..
do it in front of me again ... they all gona die within my punch ...

1... N.J.How
2... O.K.Jin
3... E.S.Mei
4... Chearn

this 4 person above better bkful ...
coz those 4 r in RED danger ... especially that guy who tease my gf. .
n if other ppl c my blog ...
giv u an advice ... something better don look or tell it ...
or u will regret to do so ...

end here ... >= (

Welcome back ...

2008-11-11T01:36:00.000-08:00

2day my gf finally came back from genting ...
i was suprise that im still alive ...
after struggling for so many days ...
i finally made it =) ...

after she back ...
i was at her cousin's house ...
den she came n find me ...
wat a big suprise 4 me ... i love u my dear ^_^

reali so miss her this few days ...
she din change alot ...
except abit taller ... n darker ... (ofcoz)
overall its almost no changes ... hehex ...

but after awhile .. she went home ...
coz her mum gona back home ..
she went home without a goodbye kiss ...
well ... i understand that ... many ppl there ...
don wori .. i din angry .. its normal 4 a girl =)

btw .. after that i went to cc also ..
i think my dear is lonely at house ..
n she just slipping ... she replied me at msg ...
but i think she continue slip after that ...
guess she veri tired after back ...

while in cc ...
we wasted half hour in there ...
hahax .. its okiex ...
actuali im not going .. forced by jonathan n eng .. .

the time now is 5.55p.m. ...
my gf still haven wake up ...
so ... sweet dream my dear .. muackz ...
i love u 4eva ...

another boring day .. .

2008-11-10T03:46:00.000-08:00

damn bored 2day ... i cant even heard a sound ...
so .. i decided 2 blogging ...
i think this is a boring post also ...
ZzZZzzZZzzZZzZZZzzz...

this 4 days not a veri good day 4 me ..
i lying on bed n sit in front com whole day ...
i dono wat i had did this 4 days ...
guess i just thinking of my wife ...

reali veri miss her ...
wanted to go with her ...
but i cant ... haizz ...

soon .. she gona move house also ...
the chances to c her decrease alot ...
i dono wat should i do ...
but i hope she will miss me too ...

without her. . i reali dono wat should i do ...
my life is meaningless ...
struggling to find something to do ...
but fail to do so .. so ntg to do ...

lolsss .. i dono wat i rite about ...
but it sure is a boring n hav alot of bad grammer ...
end here ...

ZzzZzz (>-_-)> <(-_-<) zzZzzZZ

boring day ...

2008-11-08T00:27:00.000-08:00

2day my gf went to genting with his family ...
so 4 me .. its was damn bored ...
i was alone whole day ...
ntg to do .. so i post this boring stuff in here ...

well ... this is my 1st post with pic ... hahax ...
coz my gf also post for it ...
n just now i also saw alex do so ...
den i gona giv it a try ...

c the pic above ... saw anything ??

well .. mayb its just a normal pic 4 u...

but look careful ...

wat did u saw in the pic ??

a rainbow ?? houses ??

nope ... ur wrong ...

coz not a rainbow .. but 2 rainbows ...

c the right side ... but kinda blurr ...

hope u enjoy it =)

4 days of far distance ...

2008-11-07T05:08:00.000-08:00

first ... i wanted to gratz my dear dear coz winning the model competition ...
well .. according to my calculation ... she sure win derhx .. .
coz she so pretty ... cute ... hahax ....
she so pretty lorhx ^^

second .. gratz justin for on-ing with shy ...
but he not enough fren larhx ...
on so long but din tell us ...
hahax .. but its okiex .. wish him GOOD LUCK !!!

my lovely wife went to bt.f. 2day ...
seem that she enjoyed herself so much .. .
well .. glad to hear that ... =)

but too bad .. 2molo she gona go to genting ...
1st ... ofcoz playing !! heaven of fun fair !! i would play too if i were there ..
2nd ... visit her 2nd bro that working there ...
3rd ... visiting her relative in kl ...

the trip is 4 days .. .that means tues onli back ...
i will be boring .. but its okiex ..
i can help my mum do the calander stuff ...
so there's no nid to so wori bout me ...

during this 4 days ...
i will miss u my wife ...
hoping that u will does the same things ...
everynite b4 u sleep .. pls think of me .. becoz i will do so =)

at here .. i hope that the trip will go smooth n ntg will happen ...
wish my dear wife hapi always ^_^

A day without u ...

2008-10-30T01:11:00.000-07:00

the moment that u b with me ...
the feeling is still cant 4got ...
im thinking of u ... finding u in my memory ...

y u say wan break with me again ...
y u wan say u lie me again ....
y u wan to hurt me again ...
y u repeat doing all that again ??

did u noe .. once u leave me ...
u take away my everything ...
just left a lonely nite 4 me ...
when i cold ... nid u hugging me ...
just a blanket left ... your body temperature is gone ...

mayb u r right ... im stupid ...
but i noe wat i doing ...
i noe wat i wan ...
all i wan is u ... tthats all ...

i reali veri depress ... nid someone to console me ...
but i cant ... i don wan let ppl noe im cry ...
i don wan admit that my tears drop ...
becoz i don wan u sad after noe it ...

i wan to 4got that ... i try to 4got ...
but i cant ... veri hard 4 me to do that ...
if u think i don mind bout the past ...
u r wrong .. i was just pretending ...

i don mind if i get fitnah ...
i don mind if i get scold ...
i don mind if i get angry ...
i don mind if i get hit or wat ...

but i mind if u leave me ...
i mind if u say u don love me ...
i mind if u say u wana break ...
but i can accept it ... becoz i love u ...

i waiting u to change ...
i waiting u to become mature ...
i waiting u to do wat u promise to me ...
i will wait no matter how long ...

just hoping u to share everything things with me
your secret n your prob ...
pls 4giv me ...

The past ?!

2008-10-29T05:57:00.000-07:00

wont believe u anymore ...
hnng .. always scam me ...
no i din ... my com reali no game .. del all ..
u also got c tio eh ...
den shy lerhx ?

a simple things y will become so serious ?
y u must always talk bout the past ...
even u cant 4got bout it ...
pls don talk bout it ...
n pls don quarrel with that things ...

i din hav any relation with shy .. .
pls stop talking bout her anymore ...
i noe thats iccident become yin ying 4 u ...
but all things that i can do i had did it ...

y when anythings happen u must talk bout her ...
y when we quarrel suddenly u will talk bout her ...
y when i din do anything u will ltalk bout her ...
y everything also shy shy shy...

u noe that i love u ... i noe u can feel it ...
u noe that u r important 2 me ...
i noe that u love me ... i also noe that ...
u still veri hurt ... u still cant 4got bout that ...

yarhx .. its true that i onli will say sori n cant do anything ...
n wat can i do ... u din believe wat i say ...
u lacking confident on me ...
(wat i mean is everytimes u angry )

the purpose i post this msg not becoz i angry or wat ...
just wan u to understand wat my feeling ...
if that make u angry or wat .. im sry ...
pls don angry me lerhx ... i reali scare lost u ...

lim bee kie ... u r my bao bei lao po 4eva ...
watashi wa anata o aishite imasu ...

wanted to c u ..

2008-10-20T01:37:00.000-07:00

PMR finally ended ...
but i still feel sad bout that ...
not becoz my result ...
becoz the chances to c u had decreasing ...

do u still remember last time i went to your cousin house?
that time i went there to find u everyday ...
even raining ... hot day ... busy day ...
becoz i wanted to c u ...

but since the day we started to meet with each other coz ttn ...
the time n days had decreasing alot ...
that is too sudden for me ... i had never think of that b4 ..
seriously .. during that period ... i reali bu xi guan ...

but u comfort me ...
said that after pmr den everything can back to normal ...
i were waiting for this day for so long ... n now its finally arrived ..
but i no more can go to your cousin house to find u ...

i dono y ... i tought its was your mum prob .. i understand that ..
but u told me that u nowaday not reali like to go there ...
izzit u xi guan the moment alrdy ? izzit u scare your mum angry ?
many question puzzling me ...

even cant like last time 7days in a weeks ...
at least i can go your cousin house to find u 1 or 2 days ...
until now .. i still bu xi guan ...

i was waiting u to sms me or tell me ...
lao gong .. i miss u now ... can i c u now ?
without a doubt .. i wont ask y or wat ..
i will ask wer r u now .. coming now ...

if u r waiting for your pmr onli ask your mum ..
i willing to wait for it no matter how long ...
but must ask her after u get 4 or 5A ...
if not ... the dating prob hard to ask alrdy ...

i miss u ...
wanted to c u ...
hope that i can go n find u at least 1 time a week ... >.<

7th month anniversary ...

2008-10-17T05:27:00.000-07:00

ytd was my 7th month anniversary with my gf ... bee kie ...
well ... it just like normal day ... ntg special ...
or mayb can say .. all the 7 month also pass like normal day ...
but there is something make me feel uncomfortable ...

ytd nite .. i said she veri sexy n seduced me ...
but i dono y she suddenly will say the girl seduced me ...
i admit last time i said b4 ... but just to get her attention ...
i can feel that her mood not veri good at that time ...

the moment she said she wont believe me ...
the moment she said she believe other ppl ...
makes my heart veri pain ...
but i noe she was lying ... i can feel it ...

i never stop loving her since the day i hav feel with her ...
that time is either standard 5 or 6 ... 4got ...
n last year i also never stop ... just i dono how to let u realize it ...
dono how to get your attention .. so i used the wrong way ..

make she got yin ying ...
i noe sry is no cure ...
if can cure den sry no police ...
but i dono wat to say except sry ...

that time i dono wat should i do ...
last time u call me to scold her when she change her style ...
but i scare u will angry coz that time u abit emotional ...
so i decide to show u this blog ...

but lucky after u seeing this ...
u b back yourself ...
den everything is fine ...
back to normal ...

b4 slip ... i phoned u as u said wan me say goodnite ...
u cried serious than last time ... n non-stop .. my heart reali pain ..
that moment my hp money empty ... so i used housephone ...
n u still crying ... i dono how to comfort u ...

but from the crying .. i think u felt veri sry ...
its okiex ... i never angry u for that ...
coz u also dono y u will like that derhx ...

the prob started to spawn when i used housephone ...
my mum say don phone so long ...
my bro jor say keep phone phone phone ... den wat wat wat ...

that moment u needed me the most ... but i cant pei u with my voice ...
u din slip ... even if u slip u also wont slip well rite ?
my heart still pei-ing u on the nite ... hope u can feel it ...

muackz ..

for HER ...

2008-10-08T06:03:00.000-07:00

[ I ] can be myself when i am with you ...

[ L ]ove is wat u mean to me ... u are my everything ...
[ O ]ccupied in my heart .. n take it with u ... i hope u will throw the key n will never return to me ...
[ V ]oice of yours are so sweet that i cant stop thinking bout it ... i love n miss your voice ...
[ E ]verynite i think of u ... its make me hav a wonderful feeling n giv me hapiness ...

[ Y ] ou always make me feel that you are by my side no matter wat
[ O ]verall of u is more than just a perfect for me ...
[ U ]r love giv me a feeling .. that the best is still ahead ...

[ M ]oment i with u will never end ...
[ I ] have my time of my life .. but i handle all to u ...
[ K ]iss u becoz i love u ...
[ I ] love your intelligent becoz u were smart enough to fallen in love with me =)

i rite this for u ...
hope u like it <3

Don hate yourself ... becoz i love u ...

2008-10-06T03:25:00.000-07:00

the best thing about today is that ...
u had try not angry n quarreling anymore ...
i hope it could b that way until 4eva ...

don make me change my mind ...
the onli person i love is u ...
without u ... i wont b live to c another day ...
i swear its true ...

a girl like u r impossible to find ...
i always wanted to stick with u ...
i will never let go anymore ...

u always thought that i was stronger ...
but u r wrong ... i actuali veri weak ...
from the moment we dating ...
i need u more than anyone n anything else ...

i hope i important for u also ... as important as oxygen ...
so take a deep breathe .. a veri veri deep breath ...
n breathe me in ... im yours 4eva ...

don leave me n don do anything for me to leave u ..
i noe i veri "chang qi" .. i will tried to change it ...
and think of me everynite when u r going to slip ...
because i will be thinking of u too ...

pls don say u hate yourself anymore ...
becoz i love u ... muackz ...

I love you ...

2008-10-04T01:38:00.000-07:00

everyday .. i at least say i love u to my gf more than 5 times ...
n i wanted she to say back to me ...
the reason y i like this word so much it is becoz ...
that is the 1st thing she teaches me when we started dating last time ...

that day ... dono she phone me or i phone her (4gotten) ...
she wanted me to say i love u to her ...
that time i don hav courage to say that ...
but finally i said it ... i love u ...

the feeling is like .. wow ... i made it ... i feel veri excited ...
that is the day i started to say i love u to her everyday ...
until 2day ... i still say i love u to her ...

although few years passed .. n so many things happen ...
the feeling is the remain the same ... n grow stronger day by day ...
well ... i not sure whether she hear until sienz or not ...
but i will still continue say with her ...

ofcoz .. i say that word becoz i reali love her ...
LOVE, it’s all that I can give to her
she has took my heart, but please don’t break it
love, was made for me and her…

sometimes .. when she call me to find other girl ...
n said many girls better than herself ...
mayb she kidding .. mayb not ...

but even the girl better than her ... prettier ... cute-r ... sexier ...
the onli ppl i love is her ... i will never leave her ...
i want to prove to her that .. im serious to her ... my heart wont change ...

but i think she still doesnt hav much confident with me ...
n doesnt totally believe me .. becoz of somethings ...
so i din tell her those things ... wanted to let her discover herself ...
that my heart wont hav other girls except her ...

i hope we will b couple 4eva ... n ofcoz married couple ...
hope i still hav the chance to say this word to her at the future ...
i wont stop saying i love u to her until my last breath ...
i love u , lim bee kie =)

My Feelings

2008-10-03T02:59:00.000-07:00

3rd day of hari raya ...
my gf still at her new house ...
waiting for her cousin family to go gurney ...

we were smsing with each other ...
suddenly she say something that veri sensitive to me ...
bout her god brother ...
my emotion were veri unstable when hearing that ...

the reason y i so hate bout her god brother is becoz ...
last year ... they confessed to her n beat her hips ...
they r using the brother relation to chase my gf ...
i scare that will happen again ...

so ... i call her not to reply their msg or ans their phone call ...
but den she reply me said that ... y i can hav god sis but she cant ...
well ... i told her .. if she don like it .. i can tell them i don wan b their god bro ...
that would b fair 4 both of us ...

she told don do so ... n say that we cant comunicate with each other ...
y must continue to b with each other ...
well .. suddenly my emotional changed ...
i realize wat i did was wrong ... n i say sry to her ...

lucky she 4giv me ... i reali love her ...
dono how to descript my feeling to her ...
gona die if without her ...

gona keep this blog as secret ...
hope that no ppl can noe bout this blog ... =)